Difer life and lies
♣ Rachael Achael Chael. I love carrots
I hate cats and dogs cause they always scares me.
If studying is important, I am doing it.
I am a Cheerleader of Denvers All Stars
Was from secondary team, Cheerdiac Groovers
I am a buddhist & a taoist
I like clouds & stars as they seemed to be speaking to me all the time
It's easy to smile in disbelief , just to impress the one trying to
I believe independance is the key to living
Profile
Hello i am a girl Named RachaelWong.
I Like to be poetic
I have a migrain and nightblind and low-blood (?)
I must have ethanol to survive the night
EVERYDAY, I AM CLOSER TO MY DEATH
I Think i got brain cancer
I am a Cheerleader, CheerdiacGroovers. CURRENT : DENVERS !
I might be retarded at times, but i am humourous ( i think ).
031294.
I am studying for my O'levels
I like to talk to myself
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Spent My days
Friday, December 25, 2009 @ 8:41 AM
Hello, yellow pandas :> Rachael want tell you hor, my eye bag really very exagerrating , LIKE BLUE BLACK, it's disgusting. Turns me off. although only 2days, but i'm dying. 39.6degrees fever just died. SUFFOCATION @ ALCOVA , due to lack of height, i can't breathe. then people around started laughing cause i'm short & i cant breathe, so fuck them. Okay, Back to the topic. Bloody ALCOVA, I SWEAR, _l_ SUCKKKKKKK! Waited for hours, then in the end, NONE OF US STEPPED INTO THE DANCEFLOOR. bloody waited for about 4hours @ RAFFLES. then in the end, 3.45 end. So fuck you again. Haha. we danced at the skybar, where there's a dj there. Ohhhhh, i did a great deed :> Hehe. Enjoyed with you all bitches. :* Sorry to the other half. I love you :> He said he loved me when he was drunk & told me not to be afraid if i were being put into a bag because he wanted me for christmas. Then he forgotten all about it. Cool. But still, slept at 8.30am , chatted with (G) Till he slept & he was so so drunk. ): But it seemed like i can only be happy for just a moment before it all fades away, dont it ? Haha. Cool.
The other hand, 13days, yes, texts. Yes !!!!!!!! But the text just ends. Just like that (.) No pictures, no mood. SCREW !
Dear police,
Saturday, December 19, 2009 @ 11:36 PM
Omg, i'm so afraid of edwin sng right now ! He just verbally threatened me telling me that he wanted to stab me. OMG !!!!! I'm gonna pee on my pants now. Saying that he hoped to see me soon for free piercing . Awwwwww, What a nice guy, Couldnt get hold of a girl's number, then couldnt take joke for being rejected. Then wanted to stab a girl . WHAT A GUY ! I'm really wondering, how lifeless his life is . Omg. God, save me. I hope the police sees this . Hahahah ! I swear, i'm gonna call the police :> Cause i dont resort to violence & vulgarities ^^ Let's see who's got a problem here. Bye ^^
Wavehouse @ siloso beach party.
@ 10:22 PM
Wavehouse W/ yinkee, sabina, leefong, yinxiang, xueting, berlin, Ivy, Joleen, Yvonne , Woonyean, Esther ( did i leave out anyone ? ) THE DJ SUCK HARDCORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! They explain the reason to be having some technical problems . zzz Music was way too soft to be heard. Getting softer & softer after time ! retarded. DJ STANLEY WAS SO MUCH BETTER ! i even got some Dj's sticker named zushan. They threw some Cd's with signature & hit a poor guy's spectacle & his skin beside his eye, between his nose, torn. Damn sick. Everyone tried the liquor the organisers fed us . It was awesome and that we could really feel the heat even with one sip ^^ Super lots of handsome angmo !!!!! I like ^^ Hahaha, fake ^^ wavehouse was soooooo much better than st.james on the 17th la ! i swear We played at the pool & drank some alcohol. I'm not really happy at what i saw the guys did to my girls. but she really went along with the guy. zzzzzzzz we self-entertained. something happened to me, which i did not know what. but my girls witnnessed it. i'm still curious what happened to me. was told i gave some scary stare & emotionless face . Thanks girls whom accompanied me to the locker & tolerating me. Credits to Thamleefong, SabinaChia, Esther , Woonyean & the whole lot whom came ! I was better after, Well, Then, we played true or dare after some breakfast & harbourfront. saw Hanling ( my uncle, seriously ) Then went off , cabbed home @ 7. Slept at 7.40, got woken up by my mum @ 1 for nothing !!!!!!!!!! !@#@%$^*&(I*&^%$#@!!!!!!!@#$%^&*(&^%$ Oh, yes. & i punched her face.
Vogue party @ St.James PowerHouse
Thursday, December 17, 2009 @ 10:20 PM
Mahjong w/ yanqin, xuhua & huangsheng before club. Went to eat kfc w/ yanqin @ j8.
OFFFFFFFFFF I GOOOOOOOOOOO :> Met sabina & yinkee @ hub, along with berlin, belle , pearlyn & yinxiang. Trained to stjames. Met esther, xueting , jeessica & the rest there. Yinkee's ticket seller pissed the hell out of me off ! Irresponsible. !#$#$^%^*$%$!QE#@ Met a girl called woonyean ( i think ) She's superb matured. looked like 20+ but is 15 only !!!!!!!! Like a cool only. Roy irritated me. I wanna punch his bloody face. Bloody asshole. Cigg long lasting one, seems like it wont finish, then Yinkee !@$#^*&^(%&^#%$#!@#! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Music , to me , sucked quite well. Until when i was leaving, the music was alright. Wasted. But heard from xueting music sucked at the end. Haha. Gotta return home cause of my god-godfather's probation ): I sweat like i just bathed and i can't feel my legs. along with jessica and xueting , we kept complaining. Lay my hats down to yinkee & berlin . I swear, she dance well. I held a guy's hand by accident , thinking it was yinkee's. DIULIANSXSXSXS Oh yes, i stepped on 10people's leg with my heel ^^ Drove home. High wayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy !!!!!!!!!!!!! :>
Sabina did not manage to enter the club, cb bouncer, fuck him man ! Girl, dont worry, We's had lots of fun on wavehouse okay ?
Love you girl !!!!!! :>
Tuesday, December 15, 2009 @ 6:00 AM
Out w/ laytin. Fucking clinic not open, how to get medi for him ? Went to get my bird's nest . Walkwalk, go here go there, Oh ! we found chair. si we sit down, slack . For about afew hours, we rot there. ( rhyme right ?) Haha, okay. then we started our madness. We want to imitate Lil- ahlians :> We went to the toilet to get our hair done. & started to kek one smile out. &.... These were the result. Laytin Aint at the right state of mind. Hi, guys do i look like obama ?
Went to funan to get my pay w/ my girls. Headed to marina square. working tomorrow. BORINGGGGGGGGGGGG ! Byeeeeee
Heartfelt
Saturday, December 12, 2009 @ 10:08 AM
Bishan to meet Dinghan, went town , heeren, 313, fareast, paragon, & galleria , taka. Pratically the whole town, seriously ! we did not manage to really sit down , & i was wearing a 4inch heels. @%&^*$^%@$#!~#%^% then we headed to novena, square 1 & 2, Homed. Sorry dinghan, wasn't able to pass you the Lv bag. I promise, i'd pass you by this weekend or so :D Same to the ipod , & the shoe. Didnt even get to buy anything, but at least, I ATE !:D
I cabbed all the way from bishan to redhill. Bought carlsberg from 7-11 for god-daddy. ( which was a mistake for guinness was the only beer he drinks ) :( Just got home now .
It's gonna be wordy now.
I really swear that i wished for you to be right next to me. we're so close, but gaps between us were such broad, i can't even reach you. It's our 3rd month today & you were like .......... Like nothing ! Shit you, i really dread to leave you , for only being able to see you once a week. This time more Hiong, 1 week after then can meet. I was like " happy 3rd month, meeting me today ?" You were like : " i'm working " It's okay, but you should have at least wish me back ! But well, first expression of yours was " oi, why your face so black ?" I : *shake head, lift my eyebrows * You : say la, why so black ? I : NOTHING LA ! *then turn off & teared*
Can you be more human-like ? I can sense your non-welcomed expression sneaking out from your face. I know i'm not belonging here, cause i dont feel anyone welcoming me. Everyone was like * look, stare, go * WHAT DID I DO WRONG, I SWEAR, I OFFENDED YOU ALL NOTHING, the last meet up was me buying cake over for C. was that even wrong ?
I was stoned, i cant do anything, but you dont seem to notice me at all, i even noticed the grim that you gave me which you didnt want to show, but i caught it, I dont even know what you're trying to imply ! We ate at some railway station, i was darn hunngry, but you turned my appetite down. You made me just wanna look at you instead of eating, cause i can feel the bloat even looking at you. you were hinting me of something, which i gave no care to at all. i walked off . How does it feel ? I feel no existing traces of my footstep at all in your eyes, talk less about your heart. I guess i meant nothing to you. I were crying on the phone a moment ago with you. You went on talking & talking about how lethargic you were & your schedule for tomorrow. & asking if i wanna meet you tomorrow @ Steven's Should i even go ? cause i dont belong @ all. I swear i got the answer for me being an obstruction. I caught afew glimse of you looking @ her in some ways, think i'm over-reacting or am i really over-my-limits. I've never been this way before, even gordon couldn't manage to break my heart this deep to an extend which i dont even wanna know you . What to do now that i've seen the other side of you ? Who'll i spent this christmas with ?
7th december : one plate of fried kway teow. Feed ants, smaller than the size of my hand , for the whole day 8th december : One fillet o' fish for the whole day 9th december : fried kway teow & otahs for the whole day 10th december :One cup noodle for the whole day 11th december (today) : Pratically, nothing. & i doubt i'd have anything to eat, no instant noodles, no biscuit, no nothing. Only water, damn bloody plain water. Thankyou. I swear i'd faint or be in coma. friends around me knows how , a big eater i am. & now ? Seriously, i can faint anytime, no energy even to lift the ciggarette into my mouth.
Inner-most thoughts
Thursday, December 10, 2009 @ 8:38 PM
I just slept for 12 hours, it seemed like i'm still asleep, half way to my coma. But i can still dream & think of you. I dream of you telling me that you called cause you read my piece of diary & claiming i was silly & all, saying that you're really tired & was the reason why you couldn't text me or call me. Why is that so ? Hallucination or are you sending me a message though your dream ? I just re-calculated, it's 45 hours instead of 24 ! My mind went empty. You gave me a call last night @ 8.21 pm , telling me how tired you are & you'd be asleep soon enough. Your call lasted less than 30seconds & you got pissed by my call ? I got speechless & couldn't think. It's been 16hours since your last text or call. why had you been so reluctant to contact me ? What can i do ? I could only consolidate myself. Tomorrow's our anniversary & you wouldn't be free to even spend time with me. You might think it's stupid to celebrate every monthly anniversary. But i could only say, It's all part to piece up our love & memory.
& maybe you're really busy , but i dread it when i dont even receive a morning text at all. You aint like the past, giving me calls & texts every 1 hour. I really missed it quite alot.
The End i guess ?
Wednesday, December 9, 2009 @ 7:00 AM
These were my most inner emotions. ITS BEEN EXACTLY 24 HOURS SINCE WE LAST TEXTED OR HAD ANY SOURCE OF CONVERSATION. I swear something is on , that we can never bring back to life again, dont tell me what it is. You said i never understood you. How well do you ? You didnt even initiate or bothered to even give a bloody text at all ! What can i do or rather, even say ? I'm still waiting for your call, not allowing myself to sleep until 1am. where i swear you'd be asleep then. Giving me a 1word text reply ? Telling me how tired you are, and you're gonna sleep now. Why cant you give me a longer text like adding in a " ILOVEYOU" ? When i can fly from EAST TO WEST ?! just for you to look at me for 30minutes. I even teared when i left you so many times, what did you say ? You said " haha ". I find nothing so haha-ed about. I've got no rights & power to even control your food intake, botherless controlling how you're gonna treat me ? You expected abit too much from me. I'm only 15 ! You've seen much more, experienced more. How could i even catch up ? Dont be a push-over. I can only do what i can , Please, expect nothing more from me. Treat me like an adult before contradicting my immaturity & childish actions. Seriously, why do you need to be so serious at everything ? Giving me a Shouting session just because Baobei never wear pampers & was on our bed ? Is it necessary at all ? Plunging your anger on Baobei cause he tiptoe-d ? & yet before, we had a quarrel ? Then tip me off again when i told you not to Maltreat him. Can't i even speak up for myself , You know how much i loved kids, I wouldn't bear the sight of Maltreatment toward kids ! i know, sometimes, i really went over-board with all my actions. But what can i do , I can't hold my breathe to witness it ! I could even get a high volume music blaster (Shouting) from you just because i asked you to accompany me to the room to get my clothes & to the toilet to bathe ? You were like " WHAT ARE YOU SO AFRAID OF WHEN I'M HERE ? WHETHER ANOT I'M AROUND, YOU'LL STILL BE AFRAID !!!!!!!!! " You used to say, "Accepting someone's Love is the Ability to Accept someone's everything " You seemed never to accept my anything except tolerate & continuing to tolerate. You kept comparing me with your exgirlfriends. telling how good they were and all, how you spent days with her & how long you both were together with so much of happiness , sharing joy & laughters and how you both met . Maybe i dont give you what other girls do. But i really do love you. I really hate this feeling, But what else can i do ? I wouldn't initiate for a breakoff but i'd wait for a truth factual answer held on by your courage, Telling, Whether you had loved me deep down before. I dont see any display of it at all. I hate to say this but seriously, Is this a hint & pushing Way of saying goodbye ? Am i being too serious or are you being too cruel ? Seriously, I Really dont get you.
Gonna hold my tears back now. I wouldnt cry , i really wouldnt cry. & i swear i won't else you'd be saying i'm immature again, Dont you ?
Yanqin doesnt allow me to post pictures !!!!! She kept messing around with my phone. Blame her okay ? not my fault ): I just came home, lethargic & shaggggg. Baobeeeeeei woke me up again & 9am. i'm so tired la. ): He kept crying. ): & HE BIT MY LEGS. I hadn't had my lunch & breakfast. ): my stomach's contracting. Bloody gastric juices. _l_ you man.
Hi, peeps ! Thanks for all the birthday wishes. greatly appreciated ^^ Gonna go shopping w/ wendy & yanqin alr. Sorry there're errors submiting my pictures. shall submit with the laptop soon ^^ bahbye
Birthday celebrations
@ 1:33 AM
Slept out, went to Heeren then 313 then orchard central. Had sakae & shokubo walked about. Poor longgg, went all about just to look for us. HAHAHA, nice contrdicting his english eh ! POWDERSFUL like wonderful.
Then .. Met my girls & had dinner at chompchomp. ENJOYMENT !<3 Pictured & champion-ed till 12am . Thanks for accompanying me for the last 2 minutes.
Belated celebration : W/ jackie & boonkiak & xiaokid & chester & his gf. Bugis, shopped & had the worst meal at some western restaurant at bugis junction. Pooled & drank . Home-d.
Met dinghan today for some stupid arcade game & home-d. Gonna go out tonight with dwanye?
