Difer life and lies
♣ Rachael Achael Chael. I love carrots
I hate cats and dogs cause they always scares me.
If studying is important, I am doing it.
I am a Cheerleader of Denvers All Stars
Was from secondary team, Cheerdiac Groovers
I am a buddhist & a taoist
I like clouds & stars as they seemed to be speaking to me all the time
It's easy to smile in disbelief , just to impress the one trying to
I believe independance is the key to living
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Hello i am a girl Named RachaelWong.
I Like to be poetic
I have a migrain and nightblind and low-blood (?)
I must have ethanol to survive the night
EVERYDAY, I AM CLOSER TO MY DEATH
I Think i got brain cancer
I am a Cheerleader, CheerdiacGroovers. CURRENT : DENVERS !
I might be retarded at times, but i am humourous ( i think ).
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I am studying for my O'levels
I like to talk to myself
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The End i guess ?
Wednesday, December 9, 2009 @ 7:00 AM
These were my most inner emotions. ITS BEEN EXACTLY 24 HOURS SINCE WE LAST TEXTED OR HAD ANY SOURCE OF CONVERSATION. I swear something is on , that we can never bring back to life again, dont tell me what it is. You said i never understood you. How well do you ? You didnt even initiate or bothered to even give a bloody text at all ! What can i do or rather, even say ? I'm still waiting for your call, not allowing myself to sleep until 1am. where i swear you'd be asleep then. Giving me a 1word text reply ? Telling me how tired you are, and you're gonna sleep now. Why cant you give me a longer text like adding in a " ILOVEYOU" ? When i can fly from EAST TO WEST ?! just for you to look at me for 30minutes. I even teared when i left you so many times, what did you say ? You said " haha ". I find nothing so haha-ed about. I've got no rights & power to even control your food intake, botherless controlling how you're gonna treat me ? You expected abit too much from me. I'm only 15 ! You've seen much more, experienced more. How could i even catch up ? Dont be a push-over. I can only do what i can , Please, expect nothing more from me. Treat me like an adult before contradicting my immaturity & childish actions. Seriously, why do you need to be so serious at everything ? Giving me a Shouting session just because Baobei never wear pampers & was on our bed ? Is it necessary at all ? Plunging your anger on Baobei cause he tiptoe-d ? & yet before, we had a quarrel ? Then tip me off again when i told you not to Maltreat him. Can't i even speak up for myself , You know how much i loved kids, I wouldn't bear the sight of Maltreatment toward kids ! i know, sometimes, i really went over-board with all my actions. But what can i do , I can't hold my breathe to witness it ! I could even get a high volume music blaster (Shouting) from you just because i asked you to accompany me to the room to get my clothes & to the toilet to bathe ? You were like " WHAT ARE YOU SO AFRAID OF WHEN I'M HERE ? WHETHER ANOT I'M AROUND, YOU'LL STILL BE AFRAID !!!!!!!!! " You used to say, "Accepting someone's Love is the Ability to Accept someone's everything " You seemed never to accept my anything except tolerate & continuing to tolerate. You kept comparing me with your exgirlfriends. telling how good they were and all, how you spent days with her & how long you both were together with so much of happiness , sharing joy & laughters and how you both met . Maybe i dont give you what other girls do. But i really do love you. I really hate this feeling, But what else can i do ? I wouldn't initiate for a breakoff but i'd wait for a truth factual answer held on by your courage, Telling, Whether you had loved me deep down before. I dont see any display of it at all. I hate to say this but seriously, Is this a hint & pushing Way of saying goodbye ? Am i being too serious or are you being too cruel ? Seriously, I Really dont get you.
Gonna hold my tears back now. I wouldnt cry , i really wouldnt cry. & i swear i won't else you'd be saying i'm immature again, Dont you ?
